Monday, November 1, 2010

pronounce dead for me please

"Penetrating gunshot would to the head and brain
Decedent was discovered on his bed with a gunshot wound to his head"
I wonder if Doctor Omori struggles to pull these words
from the synapses of his PhD brain and paste them on a piece of paper
to glue them right
He managed to make an internal rhyme in that second line
I wonder if he noticed.

Is there an etiquette in word choice
when you're trying to describe how a person killed himself?
Certainly,
there must be some degree of professionalism
on a document as official as a death certificate.
Certificate.
We call it certificate as if to say there is some award in dying
Like we are saying here,
this is how you will be remembered:
David Russell Adams
Japanese/Korean/Caucasian
Divorced
Auto Painter
Education - highest grade completed - 12
Suicide; penetrating gunshot wound to the head and brain
Approximate interval between onset and death - Seconds
Decedent was discovered on his bed
with a gunshot wound to his head

Penetrating; that's a pretty big word
And decedent too; don't hear that everyday
Sounds doctoral enough to me

But something I find interesting
is Doctor Omori's repeated use of the words gunshot
wound
and head
It seems Doctor Omori's got his brain on the head
And with good reason; it's the most important part of this ordeal
But why didn't he bother to find more fancy words to describe gunshot, wound, and head?
Why not lesion or cranium?
Maybe the rules of chronicling suicide are not so explicitly defined

I wonder what my father's head looked like
if there was any of it left
Could Doctor Omori see how handsome my father was?
Or did blood, brain guts, and stringy synapses splatter across his face?
Did the sight of a blown off head perturb Doctor Omori?
Or has he seen this time and time again?
with more bodies to pronounce dead after this one?
It was only 11:45 AM
Is my father just another body
pronounced dead?


I hear heartbeats and see crumpled paper when I sleep







Note to self: possible short story?